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29.10.09done16:36the new plan is going really well. i've curbed my appetite, and i feel like i have a lot more control over my food. i've lost 3 kilos this month. i need to lose at least 6 more to be amazingly fit-looking. i'm getting there. my legs feel a lot tighter, and my arms are slowly getting toned. i even have the beginnings of the dents for a 6-pack. it feels good.i'm also usually puking dinner, but oh well? i don't puke at breakfast, lunch, or snacks. and i feel like, 8 billion times lighter the next morning when i've puked. omg it feels AMAZING, because i go to bed full and blah-feeling, and wake up light and flat-stomached. it is bliss. :) i don't feel bad either, because like, it's not like i even try to puke? there are no fingers down my throat, it all comes back up naturally. sometimes i seriously wonder if i was like, meant to do this. it sounds lame, but it feels like i am actually really talented at something. genuinely GOOD at puking. how sad if that was my only talent? whatever, i'm going to lose the weight, and then i will be like, fuck you, food. <3 before
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